I'm trying to look at the positive side of things but it is hard to when all I want to do is be a big baby and lay on the floor and scream, kick, punch someone or something because we just found out she is being admitted! When we got here her fever had gone down to 101.6 and the doctor noticed her left ear was red! It was our thought that she might have an ear infection and that be the culprit! But can't say for sure because her WBC is 1000 (.1) not yet able to register a ANC! This means she won't be ready for surgery this week! My heart aches as this morning she was crying no fever I don't want to stay at the hospital! It's like being on eggshells shhhh don't say upstairs she may hear! Again o fear it will be benedryl again!
Right now we wait for platelets because they were 7000 (.7) so she needs to get a transfusion! Then she will be admitted to a room and get another dose of antibiotics! She has received one here in clinic! Let's hope that this fever breaks and she will only be here for a few days!
Now the part that kills me is knowing next weekend is a holiday weekend and Emilys birthday on may 30th! Emily will now be scheduled for surgery on may 26th it sounds like! Which means she will be in hospital on her birthday! Several things suck for that.... Her wooden swingset will not be up and the birthday party for 4 gets old will not happen! I'm trying to be strong and hold together but it's hard to! Where is the wall that I can put a hole in, where is the tissue I want to cry in and Emily will not see! I know that things could be worse but this is hard on us! Sorry for being upset but this is hard, hard on us, hard on Emily!
Will keep it updated on what's going on! They dis blood coultures also so those take 24 to 48 hours! Please send hood vibes for short time here, good vibes that dad and I hold it together and good vibes that Emilys counts rise quickly!