I know many of you are looking for an update to see how Emily is feeling, texts, questions, emails and we haven't responded... We really haven't been up for much talking lately, so if you have called and/or we didn't respond to texts or emails, we are sorry!
She still has the four spots, and while 2 of them seem to look better, the other 2 actually look worse, bigger and swollen. While we know they are not bug bites, because there are not actual spots to look like they are bug bites, we just don't know. The pain has been horrific at times and enough that we have had to start the Tylenol with Codeine again today from when she had her bone pain last week, but she mostly has been sofa bound or in the bath or shortly in the pool. She said they don't hurt as bad in the water.
This weekend has been really hard on Doug and I, mostly because of the pain she seems to be in and we don't know how to help her to make it better and really just what is happening. We have been home all weekend, while most of it has been seeing her in pain, and this is really hard on us. The pain she seems to be in is really scaring us. At one point, we almost emailed Dr. Gowda, but she doesn't want to to go the ER. On top of the weekend, Thursday we had a pretty bad storm and we lost Comcast so we haven't had any internet, phone or cable.
I did speak with Dr. Sholler on Friday, and she too is concerned about the spots on the skin. She said the bone pain she really thinks most of that is from the Zometa. She requested that Dr. Gowda get a LDH and HMA/VMA. Which they were done. (Thankfully Friday afternoon Dr Gowda emailed and said that the LDH has come back normal and that the HMA and VMA should be back Monday or Tuesday) She also said please don't cancel the MIBG scan as of yet that you all have there, but I am going to start working on getting one in Michigan. The concern would be that if this is truly progression, Emily would need to have the MIBG scan there to qualify for another trial there and insurance may not approve two MIBG's so close together. She said that she wasn't real sure about getting Emily in this coming week because she has quite a few kids coming in, but she would see what she could do. She said she has hopes that the spots are only infection, but that she couldn't lie and say she wasn't worried that they are anything else. As of right now, she wants to play it out and see what happens at tomorrows clinic appointment and then go from there. So, its really a possibility that we could be making a trip to Michigan.
As for Doug and I, we have tried to read and read and find information, but we have been unable to find anything much really. What we really found is that with the skin neuroblastoma is only 12% that get it and mostly found in infants. So we have to look at it that the possibility is 50/50 chance. Yesterday I think I tried to read and find out about information, that I just had to get away from it, because it was really starting to drive me crazy and the anxiety was building.
I have received a few messages again and instead of replying to all of them, it is easier just to post so that you all know... but most have been asking what would be helpful during this time... gas gift cards in the possibility we have to travel, donations by clicking here...others are asking what is Emily into these days and honestly she has been into her finger nails, painting and her Nintendo DS 3d.
Chemo should have been starting as a possibility of tomorrow if her ANC was ready for the last round of this trial, but Dad and I will not allow her to start with these spots and not knowing what they are. Dr. Gowda also indicated that right now any thoughts of a biopsy is not good because of low platelets. She is still off the Nifurtimox until we know what is going on and Dr. Sholler is agreeable with this.
Tomorrow is a new day, and the hope is that they are better, almost gone and Emily be moving forward. Please send your thoughts and love. Also this week I will be trying to work on finding a place to get VA Blood Services out and have a day where people come and donate blood or platelets in honor of Emily (Thank you Mary Ann for getting a number for Emily). We will update you all as we know more information as to what is going on.
Make sure you hug and kiss your kids everynight and tell them how much you love them.
Oh my, Emily. I hate this excrutiating pain in those spots. I hate the waiting. I hate cancer. But, I have HOPE and believe in mighty prayer. May God bless you, little one. Safe travels, Hubbel family, if you have to go back to Michigan.ReplyDelete
Hope....hugs...my heart hurts for you and Doug...you should know that you are doing so awesome in this incredibly stressful situation....really you are...I know it doesn't feel like it...but even when you cry..you are crying to get the emotions out so you can be there for your baby...so crying is good...even falling apart is good if it allows you to purge the negative stuff and get back in there.....I will be praying and I believe in hope...I really do...ReplyDelete
It truly breaks my heart to hear about the pain. I wish I could do something to help her. Many many prayers.ReplyDelete